Life in a Mess!!!!!

I have been writing exactly after 1 month. Thanks Preethilata for remembering me….

I have thought several times to post a new blog but the question was what I write? Should I write about my broken relationship in which I have taken back steps without uttering a single word? Or should I write about the loneliness of my life that Now I am again searching for someone one else in my life??

Yes, I am always failure in making relationship with someone to whom I like. This is not the first time I have thrown my feelings like garbage. Actually something is wrong with me. I can’t bear the boundations of any relationship. Just give me some space for breath.

Anyways, like a free bird I am again searching for a nest. Please for GOD sake don’t call me a flirty girl. I am longing for care, affection, friendliness. .That’s all. I am just searching a Pal in every stranger, a healthy relationship…… But I know others take it for granted……… No body understands the true meanings……

Something new in Life.....

Life has been changed from last couple of days. It seems to live now. I count a smidgen of every second.
Day starts in getting his one glimpse and ends in the waiting for the next day.

Nicely dress up, try to be in office before timings, waiting for HIM to reach in office and when he comes enact HIM to show that I am the busiest person on the earth, wait for HIM over the Lunch so that I can get more about HIM, and visit to his friend again and again with my problems (even I don’t what’s the problem?) as he sits nearby HIM, attend every office party just to be friendly with HIM, to leave the office at the same time so that we can go in same lift atlesast. Even this is not enough, now days holidays are hell to me. I just want to spend as much as time in office. After leaving the office, I always try to find out the ways to speak with HIM. I have found new symptoms in me also- smiling at all the time, to see myself in the mirror in every 10 minutes to check my lipstick, spray a tonne of perfume everyday. I don’t know what’s happening with me. Is it ….????

That Special Thing...........

Sometimes, you get one of your dreamy things in a short span of time and as you acquire this too early, you yourself don’t believe that now this Special thing is yours.

You just touch this thing and feel elated to be the owner of that Special thing. You discover yourself the most happiest person on this Globe. But this happiness also remains for a short span of time as you have to complete the other goals of your life too……

My New Year Resolution- Tag

Thanx Shalini for tagging me...

With the New Year come thoughts of new beginnings. Reflection. Introspection. Long lists of things to do differently this time around- Go for a daily walk, buy a house, be the mamma’s girl, no gossiping, be punctual, good bye to junk foods & late night parties, make a lot of friends, stability in job, warm relationship with colleagues, making of money, setting priorities, mind in balance, to get the award of Best employee, no lie, build up confidence, join dance classes, avoid silly giggling n list go endless. But some will work. Some will fail and some will be forgotten. May be we can use this time to appreciate what we have and set our priorities straight. To agree to bring on the laughs, the cuddles, the hugs, the smiles………….and not to spread the love too thin. To listen, to speak, to encourage & let be. Joy, singing birds, no means, Longing, watchful smile & peace…………. Everywhere. Hope the next 12 months bring all this and more!.........

A Wave in my Life...........................

Yesterday. I got the news of sudden demise of one of our near and dear ones. This news has given a shock to my whole world. I have become more serious and practical in Last 24 hours. Love and desires have taken a back seat and emotions have come on first place. A feeling of insecurity is doing rounds in my mind.

I have realized these types of feelings many times in my life. I have been living the life in a usual way and suddenly heavy wave passes nearby me and it always change my perception towards life, my attitude towards others, my understanding and makes me more practical and calmer. I start thinking about others which I usually don’t.


But I know slowly and gradually, the effect of this wave will vanish and I will be back on my track....

Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!- 8 Facts about me.

Thanx Aarthi for tagging me.............

So, here's my eight random habits/Facts/Secrets.

1. Zero in Household Chores: People generally don’t believe when I tell them that I don’t know how to make a cup of coffee even. My mantra of the life is ‘Never do housework. No man ever loved a woman because the house is spotless’.
2. Totally Money Minded: You know when I was a kid, I have sold my sister’s photograph to one of her classmates (Actually he likes my sis) for Rs. 10/-. You can think how weird I can be????
3. Sorry, No calls please: I can’t understand how these girls can talk continuously on phones and especially during night. In my case, after half an hour, my ear and Cell phone dispenses fire. !!!!!!!!!
4. Soft corner for middle aged persons: Plz don’t think wrong. But it’s true. Always fascinated with the middle aged male like between the age group of 30-40. Uff………. What a habit……..
5. Chitchat with myself: I know it’s horrific but it’s true. I always chitchat with myself in the loo. Wow…….What’s a best place….. . Is'nt it?????
6. Opposite with my nick name: My nick name is ‘Cheeni’ means sugar. But neither m having a fair complexion nor speaks sugar coated words to anyone. I guess my nick name should be ‘Karela’. Hozzzz dat?????
7. My day starts and ends with: My day starts with selecting my dress for the same day and ends with selecting my shoes for the same day. No worries in life except Dresses and Shoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. I can: Yes, can sleep more than 24 hours at a time. No intervals. Can one beat me for this??????????

Anyone, who is interested can tell her 8 random Facts/ habits. All are Great welcome!!!!!!!!!!!

What's the reason?????

Why I am not flying high
My dreams are not becoming practical
Why I’m far way from my expectation
My desires are not fulfilled.
I know there is a reason
But what is this reason????
Why I can’t see the sunlight anywhere.
No flower, no colour, no rainbow.
Why I want to close my eyes
Everything is shattering
Again, there is a reason
But what is the reason???
Why this situation is so longer
I can’t breath
Why there are dull faces everywhere
I can’t find a path anywhere
Yes, there is a reason
But what is the reason???