That Special Thing...........

Sometimes, you get one of your dreamy things in a short span of time and as you acquire this too early, you yourself don’t believe that now this Special thing is yours.

You just touch this thing and feel elated to be the owner of that Special thing. You discover yourself the most happiest person on this Globe. But this happiness also remains for a short span of time as you have to complete the other goals of your life too……

My New Year Resolution- Tag

Thanx Shalini for tagging me...

With the New Year come thoughts of new beginnings. Reflection. Introspection. Long lists of things to do differently this time around- Go for a daily walk, buy a house, be the mamma’s girl, no gossiping, be punctual, good bye to junk foods & late night parties, make a lot of friends, stability in job, warm relationship with colleagues, making of money, setting priorities, mind in balance, to get the award of Best employee, no lie, build up confidence, join dance classes, avoid silly giggling n list go endless. But some will work. Some will fail and some will be forgotten. May be we can use this time to appreciate what we have and set our priorities straight. To agree to bring on the laughs, the cuddles, the hugs, the smiles………….and not to spread the love too thin. To listen, to speak, to encourage & let be. Joy, singing birds, no means, Longing, watchful smile & peace…………. Everywhere. Hope the next 12 months bring all this and more!.........

A Wave in my Life...........................

Yesterday. I got the news of sudden demise of one of our near and dear ones. This news has given a shock to my whole world. I have become more serious and practical in Last 24 hours. Love and desires have taken a back seat and emotions have come on first place. A feeling of insecurity is doing rounds in my mind.

I have realized these types of feelings many times in my life. I have been living the life in a usual way and suddenly heavy wave passes nearby me and it always change my perception towards life, my attitude towards others, my understanding and makes me more practical and calmer. I start thinking about others which I usually don’t.


But I know slowly and gradually, the effect of this wave will vanish and I will be back on my track....

Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!- 8 Facts about me.

Thanx Aarthi for tagging me.............

So, here's my eight random habits/Facts/Secrets.

1. Zero in Household Chores: People generally don’t believe when I tell them that I don’t know how to make a cup of coffee even. My mantra of the life is ‘Never do housework. No man ever loved a woman because the house is spotless’.
2. Totally Money Minded: You know when I was a kid, I have sold my sister’s photograph to one of her classmates (Actually he likes my sis) for Rs. 10/-. You can think how weird I can be????
3. Sorry, No calls please: I can’t understand how these girls can talk continuously on phones and especially during night. In my case, after half an hour, my ear and Cell phone dispenses fire. !!!!!!!!!
4. Soft corner for middle aged persons: Plz don’t think wrong. But it’s true. Always fascinated with the middle aged male like between the age group of 30-40. Uff………. What a habit……..
5. Chitchat with myself: I know it’s horrific but it’s true. I always chitchat with myself in the loo. Wow…….What’s a best place….. . Is'nt it?????
6. Opposite with my nick name: My nick name is ‘Cheeni’ means sugar. But neither m having a fair complexion nor speaks sugar coated words to anyone. I guess my nick name should be ‘Karela’. Hozzzz dat?????
7. My day starts and ends with: My day starts with selecting my dress for the same day and ends with selecting my shoes for the same day. No worries in life except Dresses and Shoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. I can: Yes, can sleep more than 24 hours at a time. No intervals. Can one beat me for this??????????

Anyone, who is interested can tell her 8 random Facts/ habits. All are Great welcome!!!!!!!!!!!

What's the reason?????

Why I am not flying high
My dreams are not becoming practical
Why I’m far way from my expectation
My desires are not fulfilled.
I know there is a reason
But what is this reason????
Why I can’t see the sunlight anywhere.
No flower, no colour, no rainbow.
Why I want to close my eyes
Everything is shattering
Again, there is a reason
But what is the reason???
Why this situation is so longer
I can’t breath
Why there are dull faces everywhere
I can’t find a path anywhere
Yes, there is a reason
But what is the reason???

Yesterday was not an ordinary Day

Every day, when I used to comeback to my office, my mother is all set to pamper me with her homemade dishes. Starting from Lemon Soda followed by fried dry fruits and then fruit salads, apple shake, dinner, a glass of hot milk & blah blah blah. She hardly misses anything as according to her all these things are essential for me. In between we always chit chats about any gossip whether it’s a purchase of any new thing by our neighbors, any mischievous things done by my neighbor’s son, her grocery shopping or it may be anything.

Yesterday, when I reached home, she was looking tired. Her face was so exhausted and she was lying on the bed with closed eyes. First time she did not ask anything which usually she asks. She only asked me to take the juice from the kitchen. I got to know that she was having fast as yesterday was Karva Chauth and she would break her fast only when Moon will rise.

It was 6.30 pm. Anyways, I had had my snacks. Time was passing by but she did not wake up from the bed. I tried to speak with her but she was not in the position to speak anything. I realized that she wanted to have some tea. I saw the watch. It was only 7’o clock. To see my mother in a situation like this was very painful to me and slowly and gradually, this pain was escalating. Near about 7.30 pm, I could not resist my self and went upstairs. First time, I silently prayed for my mother with tears in my eyes.

Meanwhile I was preparing Pooja Ki Thali in the kitchen for my mother. But after every 5 minutes I was staring at sky to have a glimpse of moon.

Finally at 8.20 pm it came on my terrace and I shouted from the kitchen ‘Mamma, Uttho, Chand aa gaya’.

Is it a sin to help somebody?????????

Savita, One of my Office colleagues is having an affair with Rohan. He lives in Mumbai and came back to Delhi for a day after a handful year. This couple had decided to spend time together. My friend called me near about 8’o clock in the night and asked me to do a favour. Actually Savita told her parents that she is going with me.

‘Ok No Probs’-I told her and then she put the phone to Rohan to say thanks to me. The story started from here.

That day, I don’t what happened between these guys. Rohan called me at 10’o clock in the midnight and told me that ‘Your friend is yelling at me at the top of her voice and I think she has gone mad. ‘

‘So, what can I do for you, Rohan?’- Me

‘Nothing, but I just want to talk with you. Sorry for disturbing you at this time’- Rohan

‘It’s Ok’-Me

‘Can I come to meet you tomorrow???????’- Rohan

‘Sorry Rohan ‘m busy tomorrow’.-Me

‘Okay, Bye.’-Rohan

He called me again next day saying thanks for listening him n after that he was continuously making calls to me but I was avoiding him half of the times. I did not speak harsh words to him, which was my mistake. Anyways, he always talked me about his relationship with my colleague only.

My colleague got to know somehow and then the rumor she has spread in our office regarding me was too scared to write.

Everybody from Junior to Senior is gossiping but me sitting calm in my nest thinking where is my mistake in this chapter?????

Be what u wanna Be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was watching MTV Wear their skin on Sunday. The show was about changing the look of a person as their favorite stars.

During the show, a boy was called and he just wanted to look like Abhishek Bachhan. Hair stylist chaned his hairdo n makeover and Neeta Lulla, fasion Designer dressed him as Junior B and in a few minutes, the replica of Abhishek Bachhan was there. I can’t believe on my eyes.


Then, there was an average Girl, was very much inspired by Bipasha Basu and in a couple of minutes when she was out of the curtain, she was looking cynosure of all the eyes. Completely Hot n sexy as Bips!!!!!!!!!!!. (H)


So, Come on Guys. What are you waiting for……………………… (U can win a chance to be like whatever u wants……………. Rush…. Rush……..Rush……………..)

y???????????????????????

Sometimes a thing comes in my mind how safe are we on a social networking site??????? Be it Orkut, Database, Facebook and Blogspot n I think girls are the most favourite victim. Don’t believe on me????? Just logon by a name of a girl and see the results. Sometimes you just get out of control to read the scraps but sender just enjoy by all means. They don’t even vacillate to post them. Now m too scared to see my profile on orkut to open in a social scenario. You don’t know one can write anything dam hell anytime.

Why people intrude in other’s life????? Why they love to be a peeping tom????????? Why they don’t put themselves in other's shoes???What they do get after writing such awful words??????

May be this is the price everyone has to pay to be in a loop of social network.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heavy Price!!!!!!! Is'nt it??????????????

Speaking from my Heart !!!!

Someone somewhere is made for you. I have been believing in this fact since my teenage and neglecting all the future proposals. I think that God will decide my destiny but heard somewhere that you have to choose your own destiny.

Now at my age, where all my friends have been disappeared (Means, got married), m feeling completely aloof.

Sometimes u realize the loneliness not from with in but seeing the others like couples going for shopping, holding hand together, sitting on a beach n blah blah……

I don’t know what GOD has decided about me. But m very inquisitive to know about this………………….

If I were rain

If
If I
If I were
If I were Rain
I would pour down on the Shrubs
& Plants that have dried
Birds would sing, flowers bloom
& Trees grow fresh with new leaves & bear fruits
If I were Rain
If I
If
But I am.

This is me !!!!!!!

Being an Aquarian, unpredictability lies in my blood. I always have innumerable mood-swings in a day. I think I don’t want to be happy. I always scare from happiness. Whenever some good things come in my way, I speculate a different type of tension. May be that’s my life.